I'm going to keep this one nice and short.

I think I'm not wrong assuming that most of us are currently full on studying (or procrastinating).

Study, study, study.

That's all that's been on my mind and to do list lately.

Can't wait till this school year is over and I can get back to regular blogging...

But for now, this will have to do.

So here you are. The June calendar. Hope it helps you plan for the long month ahead.

Good luck, loves x

Right. I think it is important to admit when you fail. And last month, I failed miserably. 

I didn't achieve a single damn thing I set out to achieve and I'm not gonna lie, I'm disappointed.

I didn't work out, basically at all.

I kind of kept track of my spending but got lost during the last week or so. 

The only thing I kind of did right was studying. 

I think I'm starting to feel the pressure of the exams and that's why school had been getting all my attention.

I'm feeling a pressure that I need to do really well this time, while last semester I kind of went into it thinking I was going to fail it all. But then I didn't fail and now I feel like my opportunity to fail has passed so now I have to do really well again. 

And I don't know if I can do that... 

So, I'm going to learn from my mistakes of last month. 

Instead of setting a lot of goals that require my actual time, I'm only setting one. Oh, and one that doesn't actively need my time, one that's more of a mental thing. 

So here goes: 

- ONE -

Study, study, study.

I start my exams on the last say of May, so I need to get in as much studying as I can.

This is all I will be doing this month, so please pray for me.

- TWO -

This is a reoccurring one and it is this:

Putting. Myself. First.

This month I don't care on whose toes I step or who's expectations I don't live up to.

If I don't want to do something, I'm not doing it. 

If I want to say no, I'm saying no.

If I don't want to talk to people, I'm not going to.

Life is too damn short to live up to other peoples expectations.

So that's what I've got going on.

Hopefully you're reaching your goals a little bit better than I am.

Oh yeah, by the way, here is the calendar ;) 

"Relax. Breathe. It’s okay, you have time. Take it day by day and allow things to unfold as they’re meant to. Your life will happen according to its own timing, and you will become the person you’re meant to be."

As I said in my last blogpost, one of my goals for this month is to workout even more than usual. Now, I've been on Easter break for two weeks, and I basically haven't done shit. 

And that annoys me immensely. 

It's been a though two weeks, emotionally, mentally, and I haven't been able to get my body or mind motivated enough to workout.

So what do all those lovely bloggers, vloggers and other YouTube people say to do when you're not motivated? 

Make a vision board. 

And that, ladies and gents, is what we're doing here today.

I scrolled through tumblr and got a lot of my images from there, so none of them are my own, just wanted to put that out there. 

Also, instead of covering an actual board in images that will motivate me, I decided to dedicate a couple of pages in my journal to this.

Besides the pictures and journal I also used some washi tape and glue. Cause... Duh?

So without further ado, here are some shots of the process and the final product.

Personally I feel like it turned out a lot cuter than expected and I am pleasantly surprised. 

I have heard some people talk about envisioning where you want to be and what you want to do and then it will come to your more easily... Or something along the lines of that. 

So let's hope this helps. 

"Focus on progress, not perfection."

Spring has arrived! 

It's raining here right now, but on my way home the sun was shining and I was more than content. 

Spring means April and April means a new calendar. 

For April I have a few 'major' goals I want to achieve:

- ONE -
I want to workout. Like a lot more than I have been.
Don't get me wrong, I've been doing well. I don't think I've ever kept it up as long as this.
But I want more of it.
I always feel so damn amazing afterwards and I need more of that feeling.

- TWO -
I want to really work for school.
I need to make it a priority.
I haven't been going out for a while, which in my head meant I was paying more attention to all the shit I have to actually get done but that's proven to not be the case.
So not only do I want to go study in the library more, I also want to go out and party hard one more time before my exams start.

- THREE -
I need to start keeping track of my spending.
I need to start being (even) more responsible with my money.
It doesn't grow on trees.
I'm lucky to have what I have.
It's not a lot, but it's something and I need to take care of what I spend it on.
So I want to start a log of my spending so next month I can see where I need to cut back.

Let's hope this month is filled with more sunshine and even more positive vibes. 

You still have a lot of time to make yourself who you want to be.

This is a list.

A list of things to do.

A list of things to do when you feel like doing nothing.

A list of things to do when you're in bed and it's already 1 pm and you just don't have the emotional strength to get out of bed.

A list of things to do when you feel so unproductive it makes you want to crawl into a hole and never come out.

"Be kind? Really. Not just with others, but with yourself as well. Cherish the hearts of others, but also nurture your own. Take care of those around you, but also take the time to take care of yourself." 

This week, like the ones before, has been a bit of a damn rollercoaster. 

I wish I could explain exactly why, but for now lets just say it's a lot of things that get piled up and then all of a sudden there is just this huge weight of emotions and thoughts that you don't know what to do with. 

I'm determined to try and get all the feels under control.
Well, as under control as they can get.

I just need to make a bit of peace in the chaos that is currently my brain. 

So let's talk about the little things that I did this week that made me feel good.

Made me feel proud.
Made me feel the bit of calm during the storm. 

- Monday -

Had the most amazing lunch with my sister in the cutest little café.
It feels good to talk about things when you feel overwhelmed.
I don't really do that though, but on rare occasions I will.
This was one of those occasions.

- Tuesday -

I finally plucked up the courage and called to make an appointment to have some driving lessons.
I've been avoiding it because I absolutely hate making phone calls.
But I did it.
And I was proud.

Furthermore, I had dinner with two of my good friends from back in high school.
It was a lovely evening, and I laughed a lot.
Laughter really is the best medicine.

- Wednesday -

I was really in the mood to swim and so I asked my mom if she didn't fancy going for a swim that evening. We don't see each other very often now that I live in my dorm, so this was a perfect opportunity to see her again.

It was just as satisfying as I had hoped it would be.

There's something about tiring out your body with movement that brings me a kind of peace I can't explain.

- Thursday -

One of my besties came over with wine and a board game. 

It was supposed to be an innocent evening. 

It turned into a drunken night that included ordering pizza at one in the morning and playing a drinking game version of the board game while laughing our heads off. 

Needless to say, this was a night to remember.

- Friday -

I took the time to write.
I feel like that's the one thing that's been very consistent in my life:

I write when I feel things. 

I guess it's my way of talking to someone about everything that's going on in my little brain.

It gives me the freedom to be brutally honest with myself.
No judgement but my own.
Freedom to explain as much or as little as I want. 

It's one of my purest pleasures. 

- Saturday - 

I did absolutely nothing.
It had snowed. Everything was white outside.
I made tea.
Read more in one go than I have in a while.
It feels really good to every now and then just have a day where you have nothing to do.
No obligations.
No to do list.
No one to worry about.
It's just you.

- Sunday -
But after very lazy days come very productive days.
And those can do wonders just as much as lazy days can.
I worked out.
I cleaned.
I packed.
I did laundry and some groceries.
I finished my book.
Did I study at all? No.
Am I going to let that bother me? Not even in the slightest.
I need to get the idea out of my head that productive days mean working for school.
Because that just isn't the case.

So there you have it.
A little glimpse into my week.
I feel a little better... Not like I'm ready to take on the world again just yet...
But it makes me feel like I can at least take on tomorrow.
And for now, that's enough.

Where did time go? 

How is it March already?
I feel like time is just slipping through my fingers...

On my Instagram photo of the February calendar I asked if any of you had suggestions for the theme of the March calendar. 

One lovely lady suggested flamingos and I really hope I did her idea justice.

I feel like it'll remind us all that summer is right around the corner. 

The days are already getting longer here and yes, it's still hella cold, but we've been seeing a lot of the sun lately. That makes up for the freezing cold any day.
(Update: I wrote this last week, and it has recently started snowing here again... Not a big fan. Summer better hurry up.)

I wanted to implement something new in these calendar posts. 

I thought it would be fun to let you in on one of my 'big' goals for the month.
Maybe by doing this it will inspire some of you to keep going with your own goals. 

For March I really want to focus on self care.

February has been a roller coaster of emotions and I've been feeling a little exhausted by it all:
Mentally, physically, emotionally...
It's been a little heavy.

I want March to be about putting myself first. 

Only doing things that I really want to do.

If I don't wanna go to that party? No problem. 

Do I feel like eating a whole tub of ice cream? Go for it! 

I wanna lie in bed and read and ignore the world? Feel free to do so. 

Sometimes being selfish is good. 

Sometimes you need to put yourself first. 

There is no shame in that, and don't you dare let anyone make you feel guilty for doing so. 

"You are your own best friend. Never, ever, put yourself down." - Paulo Coelho

Day 3

The Avocado Show

Yes, again.

No shame.
This time: Avocado stuffed with hummus and a bagel.
Need I say more?

The 'Light' Shopping Spree 
We may or may not have popped into a couple of stores.
Kiehls, Lush, some cute clothing shop that had the most amazing patches for my green cargo jacket,...
Did we need all the things we bought?
Probably not.
Did we love all of it, though? 
Duh.

The Bookshop
Waterstones.
A glorious bookshop in Amsterdam filled with English books.
I swear I only bought one book.
But then...
An hour or so later...
I went back in and bought two more.
Don't take me to bookstores.
Cause I will never leave empty handed.

The Dante Kitchen and Bar


We didn't want lunch.
Not really.
We just wanted some cake and coffee.
So that's what we did.
Coffee and a slice of apple tart to share.
Just lovely.

The Photo's 
After 'lunch' we spent the rest of the day walking around aimlessly, taking pictures of each other cause that's what friends do.

The Hotdog
I can't remember what this little place was called.
It was on the same square as the I Amsterdam sign is, just across from the Van Gogh Museum.
Anyway, they had vegetarian hotdogs.
Go get one.

The Return 
We slowly made our way back to the hostel, where we had been allowed to leave our luggage for the day.
We had a cup of tea.
Chatted a bit.
Reluctantly left to take the metro one last time.
Once at Central Station we realized that it was already a lot later than we had expected and we might have had to speed walk all the way to our train.
The train that would take us all the way back to reality.


This was by far the most chilled day we'd had but we wouldn't have had it any other way.
I think the key to having a good holiday is this:
Just go with it.
Don't over plan things.
Don't feel like you have to do this or that.
Do what you want.
Eat when you and what you want.
Just go with it.

Three days in Amsterdam.

As promised, the February calendar is here!

I really loved having the January one up next to my desk and I used it well and often. Hence the fact that there is another calendar ready and waiting for both me and you.

Instead of the usual hearts and roses most calendars have for February, I've gone for a bit of a tropical theme because I'm free for another two weeks and I have a feeling February is going to be a chill month.

In case you're not on holiday, or February isn't calm for you at all, hopefully looking at your calendar each morning will make you feel better. Make you feel more at peace even though you have lots of things to do or lots of deadlines to meet.

Seeing that this has been working, I can say with almost 100% certainty that in March there will be another calendar right here waiting for you. But I am going to need your help deciding what theme to go for. So feel free to leave your suggestions below or on Instagram!

It's not much, but it does make me feel better. 

Ps. Look out for the February calendar coming out on Wednesday!

Hope you guys are feeling calm and happy. And if not, hope you feel it soon. 

New year, new me, right? 

Wrong. 

New year, same old me, but with new goals and some new motivation.

It's been a while, but I'm just gonna ignore that and call it a necessary leave of absence. I gravely underestimated how much going to college and living in a dorm for the first time was going to effect me and completely. change. everything.

BUT I am proud to say that I'm back and (hopefully) back to stay.

Like I said, same old me but new goals. One of these goals is being a little more organized this semester compared to the previous one. Because let me tell you, it was a disaster. So I decided that a huge monthly calendar would help keep track of classes, exams, social events,.. Blah blah blah, you get the drill.

I went looking on Pinterest, you know for those free printables? But I couldn't find anything that, how shall I say it, floated my boat? Fit my fancy? They were all just way to small. 

So I decided to make one myself. Yes, I should be studying for my exams, but this calendar was important to keep track of not only when I have my exams but also my study schedule. 

I thought I'd go ahead and share it with you because then I'd finally have a blogpost up again AND I'd have a calendar: two birds with one stone! (Not that you should throw stones at birds.) I should warn you however... I'm not a pro at things like this. It's not prefect. But who knows, they might get better each month... 

It does come with some instructions:

1. It's spread across 4 different pages.

2. You need to print them all and then kinda stick them together. I know I know, not very professional but look, it works.

3. Before you stick them together though, you might want to write in all your important dates already. it's easier to do when all the pages are loose. 

3. Then go ahead and stick it together, with glue, washi tape, whatever you have lying around and then hang it up. 

And ta-da! 

One big ass monthly calendar. I'm pretty proud of it to tell you the truth.

If I like it and end up using it all month I'll definitely make another one for February. 

And I'll share that too, so stay tuned for that!
But for now, here's the January calendar for you.


Bye for now x